Bipolarity and Spirit Possession a Gift in Disguise: August 2008

The Monoliso by Angel De Fuego 1979-2008

Book cover art by Angel de Fuego 2008

Bipolarity and Demon Possession.
A Gift In Disguise

Thoughts on controlling your demon
from a Christian perspective.

Bipolarity and artistic genius
and the connection it has to the
spirit world.

Angel De Fuego
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Writer, not something one aspires to be,
As much as one writes from necessity.

Rhyme couplet by Angel De Fuego 2008.

With a chapter written by
Diane Dickens M.A.
Psychotherapist.

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I dedicate this book to all the suppressed and forgotten
genies out there living inside of people with bipolar
disorder. May they be allowed to vapor out and present
themselves to each their human hosts. g:-)>

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Genius 7. either of two mutually opposed spirits, one good
and one evil, supposed to attend a person throughout his life.
9. usually genii. any demon or spirit, esp. a jinn.

Possessed 1. spurred or moved by a strong feeling, madness, or a
supernatural power.

Possess 7. (of a spirit, esp. an evil one) to occupy, dominate,

or control (a person) from within

Demon 1. an evil spirit; devil 2. an evil passion or influence.
From Webster's Dictionary.

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Contents
Introduction
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Chapter One: Doctors Don't Know Or Believe.
Chapter Two: Bipolar Spirit and Artistic Genius.
Chapter Three: Personifying Your Genie Demon
And Personification Rights.
Chapter Four: Suppressing Your Demon with Drugs,
Alcohol and Prayer.
Chapter Five: Genie Demon Helper.
Chapter Six : Bipolarity and Conscious Evolution.
Chapter Seven: Medication and Your Genie Demon.
Chapter Eight: Controlling Your Demon Spirit.
Chapter Nine: Exorcism, Don't Do It.
Chapter Ten: Bipolar Spirit and Bible verses.
Chapter Eleven: First Hand Witness.
Chapter Twelve: Angels Humans and Jinns.
Acknowledgments.
Index...

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Introduction

I used to be just a poor starving artist with “Bipolar Disorder”

sitting around complaining about my life all day. For years I had

been thinking and wondering about the possibility that bipolarity
could be a form of spirit possession, and that maybe it is really
a gift from God in disguise. A kind of benign spirit that both
afflicts and helps a human based on that humans choices.
Both a thorn in the flesh and a pair of tweezers to pull it out with.
But knowing the difference between the two, making it be one
or the other depended on ones own psyche and faith. Once I had
realized this, my little theory was 90% right. That day this book
idea literally fell into my lap from God. I ran to the internet to see
if there were any other books by this name or any about bipolarity
and demon possession. I was more than lucky, not only was
there no books already written by this name, but it was already
all set up to do just that. I found more than enough information
and interest for this book I was thinking of writing. All kinds of
people were wondering the same thing I was. As if God said, “If
you want, I will give you this gift that will establish you and your
family with abundance for many generations to come, but you
have to do the foot work.” I answered back, you mean money
for writing a book ? And He answered and said, “Is that all you
humans think about, what about an honest and noble contribution

to mankind?” That's when I got up to go write and I haven’t sat down

since.

My choice of the word demon instead of just genie is entirely for
reasons of identification. Since it is a common belief that man-
kind is made up of spirit, soul, mind and body, in order that the

reader may know what kind of spirit I am referring to in this book.

Thus I use the word's genie and demon to describe the spirit of

bipolarity which is the subject of this book. If you have a problem

with the word demon, then use muse or raisins or any word your

easy with. The demon of bipolarity is also a benign genie gift from

God. If mistreated or neglected, it will try to have its own way and

turn evil and uncooperative living on the lower astral level of life.
The Hindus and Yogis try to raise this demon out of the first
chakra and above. You can learn to raise your demon out and
above your first chakra in fact I recommend it. It is important to

keep your genie healthy and stimulated and working for God.

Otherwise In the form of your demon it will drag you down and into

jail, prison or even suicide. I will not go into demon possession beyond

that demon of bipolarity in this book.
That is not what this book is all about. If you don't have bipolar
disorder yet you think your possessed, then go see a doctor, maybe
your bipolar and don't know it. This book is only about the genie

demon of bipolarity and how it relates to the mind body and soul.

Think of it as a benign spirit that does not have enough power to make

your head spin in circles nor make your eyes glow, but it does have

enough power to help you create a beautiful work of art. A sonnet or a

painting or a piano piece without ever having studied or taken any

lessons. It also has enough power to screw up your life if you let it.

I am a Christian in as much as I was raised in the church. But I am
not a bible toting nor a church going charismatic type who speaks
in tongues. I prefer to think of myself as knowing God and saved
through faith in His son Jesus the Christ. Like a good decent

catholic protestant American bible reading Rosicrucian Jewish

city country boy, Harley Davison riding piano recital with coat

and tails playing, while watching my brother butcher a pig on his

ranch type guy. I was officially diagnosed with bipolar disorder

in 1997 in Santa Cruz California by a good Jewish doctor after I

had a major manic episode screaming and repeating at the top of

my voice "Where's the God of Elijah" the neighbors thought it was

a domestic thing and called the cops. when the cops got there they

found me alone but reached in and pulled me out and at that point I

just opened my arms to my side and spun around knocking all 5 cops

to the ground. The knocking down was from the demon half, of what

I now call my whole gyd being. They took me straight to the hospital

psych ward and pumped me full of Haldowll right there in the first

little room that looked set up like a jail receiving room. where I

remember saying "Oh rubber man." as my legs began to give out

beneath me and my arms stretched to the floor. The next thing I

remember, was waking up in a room face down on a gurney, with

leather straps around my legs and arms, and a wide leather strap

around my waist. All these leather straps I found out were

connected to the gurney. It was at that point that I knew I was

bound for a life of rubber room rants deep into the night. And boy

did I ever rant. Something about thinking I was the antichrist and

having the proof. My apologies to the two kids in the next room that

everyone kept saying could hear me, but I think it was just the armed

guard police man in the room tired of listening to me, who just

might of made up the kid story to try and shut me up. Years early,

I actually was locked up in a real rubber room over night. I remember

the room was covered with dark gray mats, even the floor. I remember

running and bouncing off the walls screaming "I just want to die.” But

at the end of this most resent gurney and leather straps episode, I

walked out of wacko university hospital with a diploma signed by a

doctor that read: "Don't you know that this man is completely

insane" ? that signed diploma guaranteed me a lifetime of being a ward

of the state and a whole 800 bucks a month. Plus a full degree of wacko

legally insane. And yes I wanted and needed the money since I was

mostly always homeless while my demon kept me down and depressed.

So I signed for my degree of un honorary wacko legally insane and

graduated without honors Magna Loonatico on SSI. Meanwhile I am

creating beautiful art left and right but not marketing any of it. It was

not until 2008 11 years later that I had to force myself (my demon)

down to our knees to put our forehead on our prayer rug in worship to

our creator, that I finally realized I must learn to control my demon or

it will control me. At that point I stopped taking all drugs and alcohol

and three months later, I was ready to start working on this book.

May this book enlighten and richly bless your life.
Namaste
Angel.

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Oh! mankind how shall you ever trust me
Since your not even sure that I exist
And yet I smile away each step I take
Which leads me to the door where is you stay
And with each step you take I take ten more
As is the common thought of me you have
Yet hiding is the self preserve I save
Least you see my soul deep within my core
And the form of me chases you away
Where you could fall into the fiery lake
Lured there by Pyromanias insist
To leave me alone with eternity

If you could trust me just a little bit
My form forever in your heart would sit.

Sonnet 7 from The Songs of God

Chapter 1
Doctors Don't Know or Believe.

Even if you don't have bipolar disorder, you should read this book.
‘Buy it, read it, then give it to someone with bipolar disorder. It should
be the responsibility of everyone to know the truth about bipolarity
and demon possession. Establishing a connection between bipolarity
and creative genius is the kind of thing that doctors are now doing.
Read Touched With Fire by Kay Redfield Jamison. But connecting
bipolarity to demon possession is for the Reverends, spiritual leaders
and me. Why me ? Because I have been a Christian and in the church
my whole life with bipolarity. The Bible backs me up. 11th chapter of
this book see bible verses. With a little church on every corner in
America, you can't tell me that you don't believe in demons. America,
to thine own self be true! I can not imagine anyone who is not a
Christian with bipolarity, trying to write this book. I am a believer in
God and in His “Holy Spirit“. The fact that the holy spirit exists tells
me that other spirits also exist. The medical industry is not going to
go around telling people that they are just demon possessed and not
to worry, just go get exorcised. Doctors are not priests. Remember I am
talking here about bipolarity and possession. If you want to say that
maybe paranoid schizophrenics are possessed then you would
probably be right, but cancer or heart failure is not demon possession,
nor is diabetes nor AIDS. It is important to keep a clear view of this
concept of a genie demon spirit living inside a person either helping
them or hindering them. it's mentioned in scripture that Gods people
receive gifts from God and that some of these gifts are called spirits
albeit benign. There are different kinds of gifts but the same spirit.
1 Corinth 12:4

Let them tell you that you are bipolar. That is the best way to
know for sure if you have a genie demon of bipolarity. Then think
of it as a gift from God. Thank Him for this opportunity to be
tried tested and purified to perfection by His fire. I was lucky
enough to be aware of my artistic genius at the age of 10 (ten)
and started exercising it to this day. So my genie is used of
working in the arts and prefers to as apposed to say, being an
accountant or a plumber. I think what ever your genie likes
doing is what you will be doing your whole life. Working with
and pleasing your genie demon makes for great productivity. I think
you will find most bipolar genie demons to be in the arts, but I know
a gay doctor who is bipolar and I got to witness (as his patient)
him in a mania triggered by his lover breaking up with him.
Your bipolar genie demon can give you just as much of an advantage
in life as it can keep you down and depressed to the point of suicide.
Knowing about it and learning to control it will be the greatest thing
you will ever do.

To a doctor your bipolar disorder is a chemical imbalance and
nothing more, I have never suggested to any doctor that I thought
I was possessed. except to that wise psychiatrist Jewish doctor who
diagnosed me. This idea of possession goes back thousands
of years in human history. The bible says to be filled with the spirit
that tells me to let the holy spirit of God possess your inner being.
At this point I will say that I don't believe the spirit of bipolarity and
Gods holy spirit are one in the same. I believe that there are other
spirit gifts from God apart from the one holy spirit member of the trinity.
It is one of these neutral spirits sent from God and only becomes
demon once it enters a human body. This is because of Satan’s sin
passed down through the generations in the form of Adams seed.
Either you will receive one of these benign neutral helper spirits at
birth or you will receive it later. Again maybe you will never receive
one of these bipolar spirits. Only God knows who and when.
The doctors will tell you that bipolarity is inherent and passed down
to the sons from the Fathers. The same genie demon will stay with that
family unit for generations until that family unit no longer exists.

There are good doctors who are believers and regular church attendees,
but for the most part doctors are famous as are scientists in there
skeptical unbelief concerning the spirit world and even God Himself.
I think this creates a problem for the masses to get a better picture
of the spiritual world in general. Just because a doctor or a scientist
stands up and says "There is no God," does not make it true.
For every one that says no to the existence of God there are a
1000 that will say yes. I am amazed at these resent authors doing
the talk show book tour about their books saying that God does
not exist. I have never heard of anything so ridicules in my life.
The very thought that God does not exist is ludicrous. I feel sorry
for these poor men. Maybe there bipolar and their demons have
them blinded to the truth. If you let it, your demon will blind you too.
People like that can't pray for Gods guidance and are usually never
poor. Its hard to find a poor man who does not believe in God.
Jesus said it best in this paraphrase: “It's harder for a rich man to
enter the kingdom of heaven, than for a camel to enter through
the eye of a needle.”

Denying the existence of God, will not make bipolar disorder go away.
anymore than affirming Gods existence makes it happen. You don't
have to be bipolar to get into heaven. I once heard a preacher say:
"Even if there is no God or heaven, the Christian life style is still the
best way to live on this planet" if you don't believe in spirits of any kind,
then what does it matter to you if your chemical imbalance is being
controlled by your sure will power and meds. Its all the same either way.
I guess I am saying here, if you don't believe, then just pretend that
your bipolar chemical imbalance is a genie demon. You might like it.
and your genie demon might like it too. There are tons of non believers
that have bipolarity. You folks will just have to use the conventional meds
and therapies that don't involve a higher power. Jesus you scare the hell
out of me. I just don't know how your going to make it without Gods help.
Good luck, and good night.

The rest of us will be controlling our genies in heaven, while you
non believers will be controlled by your demons in hell.
"I personally don't like to be around a lot of people anyway, and being
in heaven is not going to change that, I am a loner who just happens
to be married without small kids. I used to say, I hate everyone equally so
the less of you in my heaven the better." That was my genie demon
speaking. He wants a nice quiet serine heaven without a lot of partying
and loud noise. He has very sensitive hearing. He can hear a pin drop
on the head of a dropping pin. He says that it is so loud in hell, that
you can hear yourself thinking. Everyone’s thought is screaming out
in pain. Every demon genie that ends up in hell, will make that
person pay worse than those who don't have demon genies.
Please don't piss off your demon genie by letting him lead
you straight to hell. It is your reasonability to make sure
both you and your genie demon get to heaven. Once that happens,
then your demon becomes the genie of your hopes and dreams
and accompanies you for eternity in heaven. Its the American I
dream of Jeannie dream. All you have to do is believe and its yours.

I don't know if doctors and scientists will ever believe, but Einstein
said that “God does not play dice with the universe." so he obviously

was a believer in God. So if Einstein one of the worlds greatest scientific
minds, also believes, than who are you to ignore the truth for reruns of
I love Lucy and everything else that distracts you from your freedom.
Jesus said “Know the truth and the truth will set you free.” Or maybe you
think you are greater and smarter than Einstein? If Einstein says that
God exists, then that is good enough for me. You don't even have to
throw Jesus in there, Just the existence of God alone opens up the
spirit world to our eyes. And if the spirit world exists, then why not
the spirit of bipolarity ? Can you believe? Or is it just a bunch of
chemical imbalances and nothing more?

I have heard of doctors and scientists doing experiments on trying to
weigh the soul, at the moment of ones death. These researchers were
trying to account for a weight loss in the body. why? why would they take
the time and do the effort of finding out if there is a real soul in the body?
Because there own souls know its true, but their eyes have never seen.
They want to see the soul. They know its there, but they want to see it
with their own eyes,
I think some day, mankind will be able to actually see his divine
spiritual self using high tech devises. But that time is not here yet
although it is closer now than its ever been. Do yourself a favor and
just believe. what can you loose if you don't, save your soul.
lose it to a demon who has complete control over it in hell. Now
what kind of life would that be? I don't think you would be very
happy having your demon totally controlling you in hell.
You have to believe in something in life, or your spiritually dead.

Einstein said; "The most beautiful thing we can experience is the
mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom
this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and
stand in rapt awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed."
God has opened my eyes, using my genie, I am no longer dead.
you too can be alive and aware if you let your genie open your eyes.
I pray and ask God to open the eyes of every bipolar person who
reads this book. And for every unbeliever to see these bipolars as
the proof that God is there and working in the spiritual world.
God the mysterious hides his face on purpose. It is all part of His
plan to test your faith in Him. It was during the war of expulsion
when God kicked Lucifer out of heaven, that God and Lucifer had
a mutual understanding that God would create a third party being
to love and worship Him God. And Lucifer would do his best to
try and tempt man away from believing in God.

God did this to prove to Lucifer that he Lucifer and his 1/3 of heavens

host,were in the wrong to not worship Him God. God did this by

creating the heavens and the earth and by creating mankind. That is

when Lucifer became Satan. That is why in the book of Job, when the

sons of God came to present themselves to the Lord, Satan was among

them. Satan asked to temp Job into cursing Him God and God agreed.
God told Satan that he Satan was not allowed to kill Job, but could
do anything he wanted to try and make Job curse God.

Like a divine bet, God lets Satan try and lure man from Him God to show
Satan that a tiny being like man who has never seen, nor heard, nor
touched God, and who is here today and gone tomorrow, could still love and
worship God. This makes Satan very mad when we prove Satan wrong by
loving and worshiping God. It makes Satan look like a fool and was wrong
to try and ignore the will of God. That is why it is so important to try and please
God with faith. God will greatly reward a man who calls upon His name. I am living
proof of this. It's all about the divine bet and I guaranty that God will be
the winner of this kind of bet. That is why it is a sin to bet because God
had to resort to it to prove His point to Satan. God should not have had to
make any kind of bet with Satan, but it was Satan’s rebellious will that brought
the need for God to create the bet. God does not like betting. it should be
unnecessary to have to bet. God knows what He is doing. he is telling
us, "Kids don't try this at home" Remember God is in control of the
whole universe. God knew all this would happen long before he created
Satan.

Before the beginning, there was God. And God was alone without
heaven or angel. There was no earth and no hell. There was no light and no
darkness. Behold there was only God who hovered not over the waters of

the Firmament nor void, for even these did not exist yet.

Then God alone spoke, "I shall make for myself a companion to fill
the empty void of endless living alone". So the Lord God created Lucifer
the first most perfect created being He called an Archangel. All other
angels after Lucifer were created in the image and likeness of he Lucifer.
I will say here that a real fallen angel evil demon, is not at all the same
thing as your genie demon. genies are below angels. It was then suggested
by Lucifer that God create other angels to serve Him God for He God was
worthy of all praise and worship by all God created. So God created many
other types and kinds of angels and spirits to serve Him God, including
your genie demon. Meanwhile, Lucifer being chief Angel, had convinced
many angels to follow him Lucifer and to ignore the will of God. But God
knew the thoughts and heart of Lucifer, and waited for an opportune time to
expel him Lucifer from heaven.

lets say your a doctor, and I just got through telling you all this in
your doctors office, no, not your doctors office but your office, doctor sir.
You will either greet this weird ideological theology with like curiosity,
or you will shun the possibility that God even exists all together.
You don't have to be bipolar for God to influence your life and speak
directly to your heart. But if you were say, a doctor with bipolarity
in search of the truth about bipolarity and its origins, could some how
be persuaded to believe by this my genies impeccable logic. it would
do us all a great favor to stop looking for every last neutron of evidence
for a God before you can believe in Him. If God just came right
out and said hey guys here I am, then He God would loose his betting power
and Satan will have won the bet. Can you see friend what I am saying ?
“That they should seek the Lord, if haply they might feel* after Him,
and find Him, though He be not far from every one of us.” Acts 17: 27
* some versions say grope.
Belief is in itself a power that opens eyes and stimulates the spirit
into knowing the truth. Doctors would be doing themselves a great
favor to have a little belief in something that has been around way
longer than they the doctors themselves. I almost can't believe that doctors
can't believe. Doctors and Scientists see Gods Universe in a way that
most people don't. Yet seeing, they still don't believe. My hat, will
be eternally off to Einstein for being one of the few major scientists to
openly proclaim the existence of God. The rest of you scientists would
do well to do the same thing. Some day soon now, scientists will be able
to detect the human soul and spirit using their high tech equipment,
that some ones bipolar genie helped them invent I am sure.
When that happens, a lot of other doctors and scientists and the rest of
the world of unbelievers in general, will be standing there with egg del
ego on their faces, no doubt.
Faith comes by hearing the word of God, (verse here) Once you get used of faith it's like anything else. It comes more naturally and is easier to do.
Seeing is believing as hearing is believing. But you can't believe in spirits or in demons or even genies, if you don't believe in God first. Nor should you say, God exists only because I believe He does! God forbid. God has always existed and always will. (sonnet here)
I had no beginning and always am
And you can't understand in terms of time
That moment I have spent without your love
Save that to say it's an eternity
A waiting I have longed to do without.
Yet patiently for you I sit in wait
Ignoring the rejection you create
For my love that you mostly shun and doubt
With no regard for you and less for me
And that you are alive still does not prove
To you I am alive save in this rhyme
Or just some Santa Claus or uncle Sam
But when you love me with such joy am I
To see no wrong in you through blinded eye
[sonnet 3 from The Songs of God]
I don't think a good doctor will tell you not to believe in God. But there are those in the medical and scientific world that will jump right up and declare "More evidence is needed" Faith is the evidence of things not seen (verse here)
It is not my job to try and convert you to Christianity. I am not a preacher in that way. Although I am a legal reverend I have never had occasion or desire to use it. This book is not about trying to convert non believers. this book is however, about a spirit we all know as bipolarity. manic-depressive illness. jimy Hendrix in one of his songs said, "manic depression is getting me down." More artists than you think are manic-depressive. depending on the severity of each persons illness, they either produce art or they don't. Bipolarity comes in varied degrees.
I won't go into explaining just exactly what bipolarity is in this book.
That would take a whole other book. This book is written on the assumption that you have bipolarity and already experience it for your self.
Or that maybe you know someone with bipolarity. There are tons of books already written on bipolar disorder, and is easily researched. This book is also written on the assumption that you are a Christian, or at least a believer in God and the spirit world in general.
It took me until I was 41 years old until I finally got my official diagnoses.
In today’s modern American society, it is easy to forget about such things as spirits, demons genies and even God Himself. But I meant my real diagnoses of this chemical imbalance that now afflicts. naturally the medical industry wants to keep your genie demon (gyd being), just a bunch of chemicals and imbalances so they can keep tweaking with it with there FDA approved money making drugs. That's all good for now, but that does nothing for your spiritual self, which is your genie demon. I am not saying, don't take your meds, But I am saying, work with both God and your meds. Even doctors will tell you, it is a very tricky and hard thing to get just the right med for each person. But if you are giving God control, then it will be a lot easier to find just the right combination of meds for you. I have a chapter on medications and your demon genie, but you wont find any kind of med
list written therein.
This chapter however, is about doctors who don't believe but they don't know so how can they believe. Hopefully with the publishing of this book, the world can have a fresh new look at this chemically imbalanced, manically depressed genie demon, that has both Christian and non Christians alike, blind to the real truth. God hides from us to strengthen our faith, so a little doubting is normal. It is up to each person to decide if what I propose in this book is true for them or not. If you think about what I am saying, then you will eventually start to understand the correlations and metaphors that I present in this book, to be the Gods honest truth. We believe in truth, so let us truly believe so we can know with our hearts our souls and our spirits. This will be made clear to our minds and bodies as we proceed forward with our wondering and thinking that yes, this guy is right, and I know it now. It no longer needs to be a nebulas mess inside of your mind. You will be able to see it all clearly, as if you had known it from childhood. There will be no doubt in your mind, that Yes indeed, there is a spirit energy force that either inhibits or stimulates chemicals within your body. to either balance them or to unbalance them according to its will. And that this spirit force of unbalanced or balanced chemicals is that same spirit of bipolarity manic-depressive illness that everyone is talking about.
Now do you see what I am saying friend ? Can you picture it on the screen of your mind ? If you let a doctor tell you that you are nuts to think that you are possessed by a demon. Then you are saying, that he is correct in his analysis and you are not possessed. This is out of the realm of the doctors, and now in the realm of the clergies. Take your doctor prescribed meds, then go see your pastor with this new book about bipolarity and demon possession. But if he says your nuts too! then go back to your doctor J Just kidding, at this point you must find a pastor who is sympathetic to your cause and is willing to work with you on your controlling your bipolar demon. After a while it will get easier to cope with once you get a better picture of your demon and start learning to control him with both Gods and your pastors help. Try to get your pastor to read this book. Also get your doctor to read this book too, even if he is a non believer, it will do him good to know your a believer with this spirit of bipolarity inside of you. Doctors won't bite you if you suggest they read a book on bipolarity. Just sneak it in on them without mentioning the possession part. if they want to read this book, then they can find that out for themselves.
It should be obvious to any reader, that I am not a doctor. In fact, I hold no degrees nor diplomas of any note, save for the diploma I received from California institute of business and technology, which at that time was, California academy of drafting. My dad encouraged me to become an engineer, so I spent 2500 bucks on a 2 year 4-6 hour a day 5 days a week day course, and became a design draftsman in my fathers foot steps. He eventually moved on to aerospace engineer from just being a designer draftsman so I figured how could I go wrong. I was already a pretty good drawer and artist. So I did the course and got my first job as a draftsman with an outfit called, Trendtech, right there in the heart of a fast growing silicon Valley. I started out at ( $3.50) three dollars and fifty cents an hour. That was way back in 1974-76.
My own private joke then was; the 50 cents must have been because I was handsome, not to mention the fact that I thought (just maybe) the main two guys that owned and ran the place were gay. I remember the main owner guy called me into his office one day right after I started, and told me to look out the window. when I looked to my right outside the window, I saw a beautiful brand new Rolls Royce sitting in the space meant for the chairman of the board i.e. owner of the company. The only other thing he said was, “That can be yours if you are willing to work hard enough for it.” I just sat there looking at both him and the Rolls, waiting for him to say something else, but he didn’t. I then realized that he was waiting for my response. I then quickly said, as if we both had a mutual agreeing, yes sir, I will give it my best shot. then I got up and we shook hands and as I turned around to leave I thanked him for our little short but perfectly understood conversation.
About ten years latter I was working doing job shopping at Stanford University in the physics department earning 18.50 an hour. That was in 1984 during the Ronald Reagan star wars project which Stanford and Lawrence Livermore labs were heavily tied in with.
But, just because I am not a doctor does not mean that I don't know what I’m talking about. Never under estimate my genius. In the title of this chapter is; Doctors don't know... It is the knowing that matters when one must make a conscious choice between believing and not believing. I have always known that there is something both out there and inside of me, that makes me gaze up to the stars, looking for something other than myself.
A higher and holier consciousness with purposes, as far from my own understanding and grasping of life, as I am from a parasite that rides on the backs of ants, while feeding on their ants own bacteria and waste products. That little parasite has no conscious of my existence, yet it is alive and conscious of it own. That is to say, God gave it instinct to help it through it's short life. Such as fear, and hunger, and procreation. In like manner, God has given you an instinctual quality in the person of your bipolar spirit. knowing it for sure, is the key to any understanding. If you don't know A. Then you most likely don't know B either. So you can just forget about C. since it takes both A and B to get to C. If C is the spirit of bipolarity, then B are the semi skeptics while A are the unbelievers.
Under this formula you have to go through both unbelief and skepticism
to get through to C which is belief. You could shorten the formula if you want too, and go directly to belief from unbelief, by simplifying your life into just believing and knowing will follow suit right behind you.
If more of you out there, not just the doctors or scientists, would join me
in our belief that this book is a powerful voice, speaking as the representation of ourselves and our genie demon possessions. Then we would be the league of those possessed by a genie demon who is subject to God. We would have a place to go to study our spirits of bipolarity that are just as real as God himself. Then we all together would form one spiritual and physical world of Gods creation. Can you see it friend? A utopia with Christ as its ruler for a thousands years.
The Bible says that it will happen anyway, but I am sure that we can still right now, tap into our genies and their eternal knowledge and wisdom from God. The same genies that will be there with Christ, in the future, ruling for a thousand years.
There will be a community of understanding about Gods creation. I ask God to help each one of us with bipolar disorder, and that He would bless us and protect us from the rest of the cruel world of misunderstanding of what God is trying to do by giving mankind such a great gift as our bipolarity. God can turn your bipolar disorder into bipolar order if you let Him. Its only bipolar disorder to the doctors who try to make it order from disorder by using certain medications. But the doctors don't have any cure for your afflicted soul. That job belongs to God. Bipolarity needs to be taken out of the hands of the doctors, and put into the hands of the clergy's and God. When will that happen? probably never. There is way to much money to be made for the medical industry using your bipolar spirit. It is better for them to just keep it a bunch of imbalanced chemicals. That way they can invent other chemicals that they call meds to sell to you to try and control your demon. You need to wake up and let God control your demon by you using your sure will power to do it. If you can't, then you need to stay on your manufactured by mankind medications, that make the doctors rich. It is all a matter of personal choice. I don't expect anyone to try and make these kinds of choices while being all doped
up on meds that they really don't need. But I can not really tell you to stop taking your meds and let God be your med, even though I just did.
This will take time. What ever you do, stay on your meds until you feel that you have given God control through you sure will power. All I take for my bipolarity, is one Prozac in the morning. But I keep a supply on hand of strong pills to knock me out, in case of a manic episode. I let my genie have full rain of my creativity without anything to stifle it or put me in any kind of daze or any such unproductive mood.
Knowing comes by believing. If Doctors knew, then they would believe.
And they themselves would start you on meds, while they send you to the specialist as they would say, the future and should be present spiritual doctor. As in, a believer in the spirit world doctor psychiatrist/psychologist, that would both prescribe a series of herbs and meds with spiritual mentoring straight from the bible. Not a witch doctor as some might call them, but a real doctor who knows of, and believes in the spirit world, and that God has a plan for your life. Are you out there?
If you’re a doctor believer in God, then please jump right in at anytime, with your own brand of encouragement for those suffering from bipolarity, and your own thoughts that it could be as I am telling you . I know for a fact, that there are tons of people out there right know, that are wondering, if bipolar disorder is some kind of spirit demon possession, even while taking their doctor prescribed meds. If you don’t believe me, then check it out for yourself on the internet. I went to some of the bipolar disorder chat rooms and listened in for a while. That is what gave me the encouragement to go ahead and eventually write this book. I already knew that there was a market already set up to purchase this book, no matter how crazy and ridiculous the book titled sounded. This book was written out of my own experiences as a Christian with bipolarity, so I am within my own expertise on the subject of God and bipolarity as it relates to my own experience.
Thus, I am an expert with expertise and experience about Christianity and bipolarity who has written this book about such things. So take my expert advice and go find yourself a doctor who will take Gods expert advise about bipolarity and you. That would be a great doctor to have in your pocket. A Christian Doctor willing to sit down with you and disguise the possibilities that your bipolarity could in fact be a bipolar spirit as described in this book. Takes notes from this book to use as talking points when disguising this with your Christian doctor. I don’t know if there is a book about how to find a Christian doctor, but that is what you need to do in order to learn how to control your bipolar demon spirit, and to control it more effectively. Even if you do have or find a Christian doctor, don‘t expect him or her, to just automatically believe in your spirit of bipolarity. You will have to get them to read this book, unless they have already read it. Any Christian doctor psychologist that reads this book, will also have to rethink and reconsider their academic doctrinarians and old style thought on bipolarity in general. But it’s not a great bound from present thinking to future thinking as much as one would think.
Just replace the chemical imbalance with a chemical imbalance caused by a spirit sent from God to help you and test you in life. The same old meds still work exactly the same, but now you know what causes the chemical imbalance in the first place. Knowing what causes the chemical imbalance in the first place, will allow you to avert such imbalances in the future by controlling your demon through prayer and understanding what it really is. Then the medications will be for those times that you just can’t pray or don’t want anything to do with God, or Christians, or even life itself. Take your meds then, to help you get back to letting God help you control your bipolarity.
Believing is knowing as much as understanding is experiencing the truth that you know to be true. Doctors don’t know or believe because they have never experienced it for themselves. You can’t trust doctors to know all about your spiritual needs as well as your physical ones too. That is what the Reverends are for. Doctors and Reverends and clergy in general, need to work together on both your body half of bipolarity and your spiritual half as well. Until this happens, there will always be a great divide between just a chemical imbalance and your spirit of bipolarity.
We must shorten such a great divide to only a small step. Or you can try to jump the Grand Canyon with a rocket motorcycle like Evel Kenevil tried. But even he couldn’t do it and had to parachute to safety. One small step for your faith, but one giant leap for mankind’s belief.
One step at a time . Use baby steps if you have to, but at least try to walk across your destiny to faith. Knowing and believing in your spirit of bipolarity will set you far apart from those who can not see their own faces while looking directly into the mirror. These poor people are the lost sheep’s in life. But you are not lost. You have direction and purpose now that you are aware of your spirit of bipolarity. You both know it and believe it now, unlike some doctors and scientists of whom we have heard of. These poor people will just have to continue being ignorant until such time they chose to believe and to know. There is nothing that we can do for their faith, save to be the example for them to follow and eventually believe through our being the proof that what we are saying is true. Our bipolarity is not just imbalanced chemicals, without our spirit of bipolarity, first unbalancing them. Once the doctors can see and believe that, then they too can join our club of knowing and believing. But until such a time that said doctors both know and believe, we as a whole society, will have to put up with their disbelief and unknowing of the truth about their so called years of medical schooling and expertise. Their expertise that they are right about your bipolarity and that your wrong.
Don’t let their fancy diplomas and doctor degrees try to convince you.
They are just as much in the dark about your spirit of bipolarity, as you were before you started reading this book. Back in 1991 when I got deported out of Mexico for declaring myself a wizard god, and scaring the poor towns people into grouping together (including my then beautiful Mexican wife) to get me deported. I was not aware of my spirit of bipolarity. If I had been aware of my bipolar spirit back then as I am now, then I never would have got deported and I never would have lost my then wife and piano tuning business that I had down there in La Paz B.C.
Mexico. I am sure that there are still people down there that still remember that crazy psycho gringo piano playing and tuning guy they all called El Ken. who was married to Patricia Haydee Felix Diaz. Famous dancer in the style of Isadora Duncan. Just so you know just who I am talking about here. Patricia’s Uncle was once military Governor of the state of Puebla. Mexico.
Just incase your reading this Patricia, I want to tell you that I got legally divorced from you years ago, so just in case you were wondering,
we are no longer married. I am now remarried to a gringa non dancer.
I now know of, and am in control (knock on wood) of my spirit of bipolarity. So don’t be afraid of me any more. We most likely will never meet again anyway. Unless of course you behave your be-a-witch little self, and we meet in heaven someday. But I doubt it. L
Yes I do believe that my crazy actions back then in La Paz, was my genie demon freshly awakened by several trips to the main land Mexico City and to Tepozland Morelos in Mexico, where the tepozteco pyramid is, and where I lived for about a year. It was there in Tepozland that my then wife Patricia, told me not to ever get mad or upset or to ever be in any kind of mania, although back then in her well spoken English, she called it a rage. Now I know why. Because that place is very sensitive to the spirit world. Patricia’s witch sense somehow told her intuitively about both the power of such a place and about my spirit of bipolarity and its sensitive nature to the tepozteco in general. But like the drunk blind ignorant fool that I was back then, I did not listen to her, and because of that, wound up in a Mexican half jail and half recovery home in Cuernavaca Morelos, just a half an hours drive from Tepozland. After a few nights in that hell, and I had to beg Patricia and her powerful friend in that community, to get me the hell out of there and back to my own country if need be, but anywhere but in there. Eventually I got Patricia and what’s his name, to get me out of there. Yes, I should have listened to Patricia, but my demon had me blind to the truth. I say this to let you know just how much power there really is in such so called hot spots of psychic and spiritual energies. Even UFO’s are known to hover over the Tepozteco pyramid high above the town on a small mountain of rock mixed in with rich thick forest like trees. Near there is a little town called Amatlan, which is where the Mayan god Qezotcautli was supposedly born. All this is part of rich Mexican history as it dates back to the time when Tenochtitlan was, what Mexico City is now.
It was just coming out of this kind of rich high conscious stimulating environment and back to ol same boring and hot as hell La Paz, that got me thrown into a mania thinking that I was a chosen one or some kind of wizard bent to the dark side. And that got me eventually deported. Now you can see how just having a little bit of faith can save you from a worse fate. If I had only known back then about my bipolar spirit, then I would have seen that whole Tepozland trip, and trip to Teotihuacán and even that trip to Fire Mountain around the same time, in a complete and different light and consciousness. So, from now on, I shall not see things the same,
And will ovoid such trifle interruptions to my life, such as getting deported out of Mexico and losing my wife my family and my business all in one manic and uncontrolled episode.L .
Seeing is believing and I have seen my spirit of bipolarity. Albeit, often too late, but never again. Now I am ready for my little demon bastard to just pop his little head up, so I can club it back down like those games you see in the penny arcades, where little gofers pop up there heads and you have to club them back down before they themselves quickly stick there little heads back in there gofer holes. See, you don’t even need to go to a real arcade. You can just during the course of your day, play the gofer head game with your own bipolar demon, and all day long, you can club him for free.J There, I just invented a nice little game for you to play that is both a learning game as much as a point earning game. But don’t let it go to my head. Keep it on your gofer demon ‘s head. Keep pounding him down and score points that you will use as tickets to get cool stuff from Gods display case of spiritual toys that you can use to both help and amaze your friends. If you look hard and close enough into that glass display case of God. You will see way in the back what looks to be like a genie in a clay bottle. That is the toy prize that your shooting (pounding)
for. The more points you can get, the closer you are to having just the right amount of tickets to get that genie in a clay bottle. Your not even going to ask the attendant how many tickets it takes to get that genie. Just seeing it there in that display case, hidden in the back almost purposefully, makes you run straight to that gofer arcade game, where you start pounding the head of your gofer demon. The whole time your pounding, you are thinking about that genie in a clay bottle, that you noticed said unlimited whishes in very small print almost undetectable. You have fantasies about what you will ask it for, in the form of your unlimited whishes. You never even saw any other toy in that display case, save that genie in a clay bottle with unlimited wishes, even though that display case was full of other toys. If we would all see our spirits of bipolarity in the same way you saw your genie in that clay bottle in Gods display case, then we all would have a much better life while living and playing spiritual arcade games on this physical planet.J
I interrupt this book with an important message from the democratic party: Hillary Clinton has finally this day June-6-08 stepped down to throw her support behind Obama for President. “Well it’s about time girlfriend“. Now we can all rest assured that Obama will be our next president. I personally think that Obama should slip Karolyn Kennedy into the Vice Presidency As a flip in symbolic motion under the laws of opposites. That is to say, since Chaney was in the position that Karolyn is now in, when he opted to suggest himself for Vice President, instead of looking for someone else for the Job of vice Pres, which is what Chaney’s job was, as is that of Karolyn’s now. Under that same formula, If Obama makes Karolyn his vice President, then there is no way they can loose. Esp. since Karolyn is a women and Chaney is a man. It would be an act of set up symboling under the laws of opposites which you can read all about on my weblog on the internet. But I am not saying that if Obama picks someone other than Karolyn, that he won’t win, I am just saying that with Karolyn as his running mate, it would be impossible for them to loose, since in symbol they are doing in reverse what Chaney and Bush did in real life forward motion. In the world of symbols it throws the switch of cause and effect to a positive on position. Anyway, I didn’t mean to get off the subject of this book, but right now, this election is the most important in recent American history.
That is why it is so important to believe in something and to know that what you believe in is true. Doctors don’t know or believe in your spirit of bipolarity but it is time for them to jump on the bus of change along with Obama, and change their thinking from cause and effect, to effect and cause of belief and cause of knowing, and start believing that yes we can change this world by believing that the spirit of bipolarity lives among us and in us to cause the effect that said doctors think they know, as imbalanced chemicals. The cause of the chemical imbalance is a spirit that inhabits the body. This spirit you inherited at conception from one or the other of your parents, and is passed from them into you in the form of the bipolar gene-genie-genius. You can deny this fact, however I don’t recommend it. The sooner you start believing that what I am saying concerning your spirit of bipolarity is the Gods honest truth, then the sooner you can get on with living your life more abundantly. It is no longer a secret that your bipolarity is actually caused by a spirit sent to you from God. God has and will pull the vial from your eyes, that has for so many thousands of years, been kept there by God Himself. Speaking to humanity as a whole, God is saying through the writing in this book, that He is now pulling off the vial that for so long has blocked man’s eyes from seeing the truth of His spirit of bipolarity. The fact that God has chosen me to be His scribe in as much as I am guided by His holy spirit during the writing of this book, I make no claims to any glory belonging to God and His holy majesty, for the wisdom and holy logic that this book shows in these my simple lines. God is saying that it is time for all His gyd beings to wake up and help Him in these last days. Without coming right out and saying here I am, God is coming right out and saying here I am to all the gyds reading this book. It will all still be a secret to all the unbelievers, but Gods chosen people are to now know the truth that will set them free to act accordingly to Gods will. And to start helping others see the truth not just before their very eyes, but indeed behind their very eyes in the form of their spirit of bipolarity twinkling inside of them.
Wake up for it is time to believe and be believed. There is no more time left. We don’t have another two thousand years to twiddle our thumbs into a pile of radiated chemicals left over from a nuclear holocaust that will signal the end of humanity without a belief in God. Look up and tell me that nuclear cloud luring above your head is not the symbolic nature of a Godless mankind bent on his own destruction. Only a blind man or a fool can not see such a cloud that really represents the vaporous moisture
seeping off the finger tip of “He” or “Her“, who holds the launch button just a finger tip away from total inhalation. Mankind must have and let God guide him through life, or such an inhalation will indeed happen. God has already promised in so many words that He would come for the believers before any such nuclear holocaust, which He Himself may even insight. You and your genie in the form of your gyd, must be aware of and be ready for this to happen. Don’t be caught unaware like the Bible says, or you will not achieve your goal to obtain a Godly consciousness in heaven with Jesus.
Believing and Knowing will help this come to light. It will shine as the bright model of a binary universe in which both a man and a women walks through life hand and hand. Now you must make your demon and your genie both walk through their spiritual bipolar life hand and hand and balanced according to the will of God. Doctors are very much aware of the binary aspect of life and death. They struggle everyday fighting against death, life’s foe. So let them also see the bipolar effect as spiritual battle against that foe of good, who is that personification of Satan who was also Lucifer the Archangel. Believing is knowing as knowing is believing. There is no human alive today, nor has there ever been, that could take claim to the creation of Lucifer and/or Satan.
This kind of human knowledge, of good and evil, has been around since the garden of Eden itself. There are even old Samarian stories of a garden and a tree of good and evil that a man and women were forbidden to eat from, that go back before the Genesis account in the Bible. What I am saying here is, the whole bipolar and binary aspect of the universe in general, goes back to the Big Bang Itself, and maybe even before.
So I am only passing along information about a universal aspect of life
which I nor any of you the readers of this book, had any part in creating.
Binary is to bipolar, what chocolate cake mix is to a chocolate cake.
One exists because of the other, and not the other way around. Can you see friend what I am saying? in the form of a rhetorical question. I want everyone out there reading this book, to put the book down, and to put their hands on their TV sets, And then to pray with me to pick up their TV’s and to toss them into the dumpster of life, where they belong.J But all seriousness aside. Don’t ask your TV preacher anything, cause he wont be able to give you a straight answer. Take my word and Gods metaphoric word, that you do indeed have something living inside of you besides just those little ass worms that come crawling out each night while your asleep. These little fecal pinworms as their called, feed on the left over fecal matter around the opening of your asshole, while the female lays her eggs on your but cheeks. When these eggs are hatched, they feed on the left over poop left there by you when you wiped your butt after doing # 2. But, a pun intended, the # 1. thing to keep in mind is that they are real, they are there, and they are mostly unknown to mankind in general, even though virtually every human being has them. How do I know about these little butt worms? You can find out for yourself on the internet at smellypoop.com
But, no pun intended this time,, the point I am making here by using these disgusting worms as an analogy of something living inside of you and you not even knowing about it. So, is it going to be worms, or the spirit of bipolarity? Sorry, the worms you can never fully get ride of, but under the same formula, yet the opposite pole, the spirit of bipolarity living inside of you, you can never afford to not except and embrace as your very own.
Having a psychotherapist M.A. as my wife keeps me in check. She often complains about my fascination with poop and wont even visit my Poop Blog The Disgusting Art Project at: poopblog-angel.blogspot.com. L
But that won’t keep you from visiting it. There you will find a rollercoaster of bipolar emotions even to the derogatory, plus you will find photos of my poop. Why on earth would you ever want to see photos of my poop?
To better understand the very nature of bipolarity and its associated demon. Clever and cunning in a crappy way, no pun intended. My demon took it on himself to be the proud owner of my genie and my art, even to the point of giving the world photos of my poop, to those who would not take the time and effort to find and enjoy my real art (painting, music and poetry) showing his genies and our gyd genius. If you go to my poop blog,
You will find an explanation there concerning my bipolarity and the like. But you will not find anything concerning the spirit of bipolarity on any of my blogs, except my blog called First Church of Bipolarity (firstchurchofbipolardisorder-angel.blogspot.com) and in the way I am presenting it in this book. The reason for that is because as soon as I started writing this book, I stopped blogging for a while to finish this book.
Yet I do keep The First Church of Bipolarity more or less up to date
But, like my dad often says, it all comes out in the wash. The poop that is, concerning my dirty life with this dirty illness, as the doctors might say. But, again, lets not forget the “Gift” element in all this. In the next chapter concerning bipolarity and artistic genius and how it relates to the spirit world. I show the gift element in its most raw form. That is to say, that I expose the very essence of the true nature of Gods spirit of bipolarity as a gift in disguise. But in the remainder of this chapter that you are now reading, I expose the present explanations of your bipolar disorder, by doctors, to be just a half truth of sorts, and not just an out right lie. Yes it is a chemical imbalance, but what causes the chemical imbalance is what always gets left out in the cold freezing air of unbelief. At least when and where the unbelieving doctors are concerned.
The doctors are snuggled warm in their belief, in their doctorate degrees and such. Academia is there religion and the dictionary and medical manuals are their Bible. And each doctor thus becomes a deity savior and god to all those who can not save their own bodily broken lives.
But you would not go to your doctor the god, to have your spirit fixed or
made well, or even doctored back to spiritual health. For that you would go to your pastor. But what if your pastor has never heard of such a thing as the spirit of bipolarity, since the doctors never really knew to tell them, the pastors. That is where you and this book comes in. I don’t envision this book sitting around on some shell just collecting dust. I do see the future colons of this book as being very busy in peoples hands and being read by peoples eyes and understood by peoples brains and minds and souls and spirits of bipolarity. Both Diane and I see a future with a clearer understanding of bipolarity as really being what it really is, a spirit with vexing qualities sent to us from God. Of course this will be more evident in the Christian world in particular, than in the secular world in general. Never the less, it will be not only evident but also an excepted norm in society as a whole. There will be a clear distinction between spirit possession of the angelic class, and spirit possession of the bipolar spirit demon genie class. Hollywood can finally get it right, and start to create scary movies using the angelic class fallen angel demon, and not your benign bipolar class spirit demon genie. Right guys who write all that sort of Hollywood crap and lies?? You artist writer types need to give us all out here a break from all the nebulas bull crap fantasy with fact unknowingly mixed in to try and scare us to death. It really would be scarier if you guys would just research a little on the Key of Solomon also called the Black Grimior. Then write some possible scenario concerning an evil Master Priest in this type of craft. I think it would really scare the hell out of people in general to know that such things as in the Key of Solomon are as real as the existence of he performing such experiments, conjurations and the like. But you did not hear that from me. My demon is the one suggesting such research, not I.
I only use such things hear in this book to show the reader that yes there is a real realm of spirits in our otherwise material only world. Any Christian believer in God must also except the Key of Solomon as further proof of the existence of the spirit world. To say that the Key of Solomon is only a trick of Satan and Christians should not read it, is also saying that it is real, in as much as Satan to us Christians is also a very real power and principality of an existing being who once lit up the heavens as Lucifer the most perfect and beautiful brightly shining light of an Archangel living being. When you close your eyes to such truths, then all you have left is you in your own darkness of imbalanced chemicals and
Little else. You then become as your pet, and take yourself to your veterinarian without a God or prayer, but with plenty of meds and the like to help your doggy or kitty of a self into feeling better. Dogs and cats have no such God as we humans. Well at least some of us humans know the truth before our very eyes. I for one have known the truth from babyhood
If that’s possible. As I mentioned elsewhere in this book, I have never not known the name of Jesus Christ and what it means. I guess that makes sense for someone raise in a little Assembly of God Church in Shingle Springs Cal. That little church no longer exists there in Shingle. It faced Highway 50 on a little road called Durock Rd. My family lived about two blocks down the road on Durock, from the freeway off ramp, in a westerly direction towards Sacramento. When I was a kid, there was a thick tall wooded area between my house and the church property which included the parsonage in the back as they called it back then. That is where the preacher and his family lived. Back then most of Shingle Springs was all a thick wooded area where a kid could get lost in his own imagination of anything is possible in these kinds of woods. It all had a mysterious feeling about it when I was a kid living there in Shingle. I can still remember when I was a kid laying in bed at night, I could hear the cars and trucks passing by on Highway 50. Sometimes I could hear a big rig truck as its tires would whine down the road either getting louder or getting softer. I could tell if these rigs were going or coming from Sacramento or going to Placerville. Don’t ask me how I knew all the fine details, but when you’re a kid laying their in bed late at night, not to far from a major Highway like 50, then its easy to imagine all kinds of weird things in the sounds you might hear coming from that kind of freeway.
Now I wonder if I had been then, aware of my bipolar genie spirit as I am now, what my life might be like today. It is scary just to think about all those lost years to living a lie about my own nature and spirituality, not to mention yours. But I wont mention yours if you won’t mention mine, OK…agreed? J I am going to mention yours anyway.L Otherwise I would not be a good teacher which is what I have become by the writing of this book. Not to be thought of as breaking any agreement that we may of previously had, or even a liar for that matter, I will continue to educate you on your own lost years and their not so lost and present implication on your now implicated into believing, that your bipolarity is now a spirit, among other doctor like explicated things. We will all have to make up for those lost years. Not just us living today, but for the countless millions of bipolars who have lived before us, without knowing of their bipolarity.
Demon genies running ramped for centuries at a time. It is now our time, place and job, as responsible Christians and good Stewarts of our gyd beings, to both recognize our gyd beings existence and to control our demon half’s. And living this said existence as it directly effects each one of us and our loved ones. Your not watching all this in some movie. This spirit of bipolarity is as real as you yourself while not being an actor in some movie, you may have watched at some time. When you put this book down between chapter or reads, the spirit of bipolarity does not disappear, but remains the same and as real as the one living inside of you and all others with diagnosed bipolarity. It is normal to try and deny it at first. That is called just being in denial. Being in denial is why most of the worlds evil and unbelieving population, will end up in Sheol or more directly put, Hell. All we Christians know or at least should know that the path to heaven is very and extremely narrow. A lot of big fat rounded with prosperity type preachers will not be able to navigate on that high but very narrow ledge like path that leads up and to heaven. Just their weight alone could cause a part of that brittle ledge of a path to suddenly crack beneath their weight. Then they would fall straight down to the pits of hell waiting below. Those types would be better off leaving all their body fat of just playing with God, back on the ground and closer to earth. Being that high on the small brittle ledge to heaven with all that excess body fat, is just to dangerous for them.
Will you be able to navigate such a narrow and high path to heaven?
You will with your genies help. Even if you physically weigh a ton, as long as you are controlling your demon, your genie will be able to get you not only up and through that narrow ledge to heaven, but also will allow you to lead others in your foot steps so that they won’t fall back and down to hell waiting below. Even so, don’t let your genie demon try to take the place of Jesus. Each gyd being still needs Jesus and the holy spirit of God, to help them get to heaven themselves. So lets see now, as we have seen, it is hard for a rich fat man like many modern day preachers
Like Farwell who just died in 2007, to get into heaven. So how many others still remain that just use the name of Jesus to beg for money while they gorge themselves on lavish and well living, right under the noses of all those poor people and widows that just sent such lying TV preachers their SSI checks? When are these lies and these obvious charlatans going to stop. Those preachers who do this sort of thing are literally playing with fire. The holy fire from God that descends from heaven to burn all those intent on marching Gods domain a holy foe. Wolves in sheep’s clothing like so many tax collectors mentioned in the New Testament. Jesus, how can America continue to be so blatantly hypocritical? Open your eyes people. Or will you now be as old Israel was when God and Moses led them for forty years through the wilderness and desert? If you are, then I am that new age Prophet sent to you from God to tell you to wake up and open your eyes, before something befalls you akin to that of the Biblical punishments bestowed upon a rebellious and stubborn but much younger than now Israel. Don’t think for one minute
that if God tells me to do something in the way of convincing you all that
God means business, that I won’t do it. What ever God wants me to do or say, I must do or say exactly that. Nothing more and nothing less.
Doctors don’t want to hear such things. They will ask you if you hear voices or if you see things. Telling a doctor that God spoke to you and told you to do or say something, will just make them think that you are crazy, bipolar, or maybe even possessed.J If every doctor in the world believed in God and His spiritual realm, then this book would not be necessary. Bipolar spirit would be a common household term and item.
If I could wave some magic wand to turn all unbelieving doctors into believing ones, then I would. But no such magic wand exists. Or if it does, some unbelieving doctor has it well buried or hidden somewhere no doubt. I say, physician heal thyself, and go dig up that magic wand of belief and start waving it around yourself and your collages in the medical industry. Oh Yah! I almost forgot, if you did that, then you could no longer try and trick us into buying all your medication that puts lots of money in your doctor pockets. OK, cancel the call operator. But at least be doctor conscious of the FACT that it really is a spirit causing the chemical imbalance of bipolarity and that your money making meds will still work. Can you doctors who are Christians and believers at least do that much for your rich doctor selves, and maybe for the rest of us poor people too?
Or is asking another human being to believe in the seemingly impossible existence of God, just to much to ask? If you unbelievers can convince me that there is no God, Then I will stop writing this book, but the fact that this book has already been written and published, proves that there is a God. So now what will you say, that I am just a clever author without
The help of God? God forbid! It turns out to be far more complicated than that. In fact, it is as complicated as God Himself. This is not a book on the non existences of God, and my name thank God, is not Christopher Eric Hitchens. Jesus, what a pain in Gods ass this guy turned out to be. Going around saying that God does not exist is akin to being suicidal, and trying to take God with you. Like a murder suicide. He Christopher thinks that anyone can just reason away the existence of God using human logic, linguistics, semantics, lies and the like.
He went to Oxford, but he still can not match my 4th grade education in intuitive reasoning that yes, God does indeed exist. All his Chris’s education does nothing for his soul. It makes perfect sense to me that Academia again like the doctors, will insist on the non existence of a God that purposefully hides from them. Oh well, Chris and others like him will just have to grope their way through life, being led by all their money that has printed on it: IN GOD WE TRUST. “Chris, I personally have no need to even meet people like you, and I hope for your sake, that I never do. “I will eventually need to practice calling fire down from heaven on people, like Elijah did, so you would indeed make good target practice.“J That was my AntiChrist spirit speaking. Even he believes in God. “The fool says in his heart,“There is no God.“ from Psalms 14:1 So people like Christopher Hitchens are just showing themselves to be nothing more than ignorant fools. God will protect me from such evil men as you.
You won’t even be able to sue me for slander, because you don’t believe in God. You said it yourself not I. Plus, you can not sue a person for calling you ignorant. Ignorant as in ignoring something, and then acting publicly foolish in your denial by going on the talk show circuit. If the truth fits, then wear it. Or I guess in your case Chris, if the shoe of unbelief fits you, then by all means wear it. I have already wasted enough time on the dislikes of you.
Doctors are unbelievers, or unbelievers become doctors. Either way it is still again, a pain in the ass for the rest of mankind. It does not matter to me personally if you all get to heaven or not, but it does matter to me personally, that you know and believe in the spirit of bipolarity. Sooner or later someone else would have written this book, if not I at this time. It should be of no surprise that this book exists claiming that bipolarity is really just a spirit from God. It was bound to happen sooner or later. Thus, I am writing it down as we speak.J Claiming the spirit of bipolarity exists, should be less audacious than claiming God Himself does not exist. Yet there will still be people who won’t believe the believable while believing the impossible. Thus, it is impossible for God to not exist.
Perfect holy logistics from God will be impossible to argue with, so I recommend that nobody out there even try. But I know that there will be a few people out there reading this book, that would just love to sit me down and have a good argument about the existence of God and such things. But that most likely will never happen since I loath to argue.
My impeccable logic was never meant to be wasted inside a court house defending or prosecuting other humans. However, my impeccable logic
Is from God, and will be used for His divine purposes. I would rather that God take me out and off this planet, than for me to waste my precious gift from Him God, on some trivial matter. Or for my gyd self to fall into enemy hands, who could then force me to use my powers for evil. God knows my feelings on this matter and where my heart is an accordance to His holy and divine will. I don’t need people reading this book, to snicker at this point. No, I don’t mean stop reading and eat a snickers candy bar, but if you do eat a snickers, just be sure to not snicker at me while eating your snickersJ Remember in 2 Kings 1: 23-24. Two bears that mauled forty-two children who made fun of, and snickered at Elisha, who called down a curse on them (children) in the name of the Lord.
Right after Elisha called down the curse, two bears came out of the woods to maul the children. It does not say to eat or kill the children,
It only says that the bears mauled the children.
Under this formula, try not to ever do anything in my presents (should you ever meet me) to indicate a snicker or mockery of me. As I too am the Lords prophet. Not that I would ever call down a curse on anybody in the name of the Lord, as did the prophet Elisha, but that you can know that such things do indeed exist, I therefore mention it now in this book. But you never know what I might or may not do at any given moment, so be on your guard against me and my sometimes uncontrolled power of God, that is channeled through me as it was the prophets of old. I see you starting to choke on your snickers bar. Maybe you need to drink the water of God to help wash that snickers down? Yes, I do indeed get right to the point at hand. Shall we continue, or do you need to drink more living water of God? Ok, as I was saying, doctors can’t know, until they believe.
So there is no point in telling them anything that suggests any kind of spirit possession as it relates to your bipolarity. Save that for the Christian doctors only. The rest of the non believing doctors you can treat as just your mechanic and the like. They don’t get to be members of our God club. They are on the outside of our camp. They are the unbelieving Philistines and our enemies. Doctors or not, if they are unbelievers, then they are on the outside looking in. If we are physically sick, then we will
travel outside our camp and to them. They are not allowed inside of our camp. If they come in without our permission, then they will be killed with the symbolic sword of Moses and Aaron. Then their symbolically dead bodies will be dragged outside the camp and buried.
Either you take your Godly Christianity serious or you don’t, that is entirely up to you. But I do take mine very and extremely serious to the point of living as though I have taken the Nazerite vow. But I have not. It is best for me to not take the vow as it is mentioned in the book of xxxxx and to just live as though I have taken the vow. It works best that way. Since my wife set out a bowl of grapes the other day, and I started munching on those delicious grapes until I remembered that I am trying to live my life as though I have taken the Nazerite vow, which includes not eating grapes as much as not drinking wine. That way I did not have to tear my clothes and put on sack cloth because I accidentally sinned and forgot that I had taken the Nazerite vow. Modern Christians have a drive thru
sense of Christianity when it comes to their relationship with Jesus.
But God is looking for more of a commitment than just occasionally touching bases with Jesus. Jesus should not just be the accuse you use to continue in your sinful life. For Jesus and what He did at the cross, to actually make a difference in your life. You need to live as though you were also a Nazerite and member of one of the tribes of Israel under Moses and Aaron. Remember Jesus did not come to abolish the law, but to fulfill it. Nor should you go to the other extreme now, and become to legalistic for words.J Find your happy medium and stay there so God can find you when He needs to use you for a great thing. What ever you become as a direct result of the reading of this book, should be what you remain for the rest of your life. But if you just play games with God, and never take your Christianity more serious than just church every Sunday and a prayer of grace at your dinner table each day. Then your genie demon gyd being will in like manner, suffer in its half existence of only being half way recognized or believed. To have a whole and complete genie existing and working for God, you must believe in it with your whole soul and mind and believe whole heartedly. A half way belief in God will only get you half the way to heaven. And that means all the way to hell.
(show verse about spitting one half way, out of the mouth) I don’t expect any doctors to have my kind of faith. But I do expect Christians to at least except the facts for what they really are, or get the hell out of my way, because otherwise, you are just slowing me down on this race track to heaven.
I do not have the time or the energy to take each and every human being by the hand, and lead them to heaven. That job thank God belongs to God. All I can do is to finish writing this book, and to present my evidence in the best way I can, as to the revealing of Gods truth about the spirit of bipolarity. Also before I forget again, I want to mention something about the genealogies and family units in general that carry the bipolar gene, as it gets passed down the line from generation to generation and from the Fathers unto the sons. These families should have special attention paid to them as the breeding ground and spawning soup of the djinn beings that God has given to each one of us who are bipolar for sure and with a diagnoses of 100%. I will make a note to myself about possibly writing a book on this very subject, since it is so important to preserve these blood lines as the carriers of the djinn spirit from God. Who all these families are, is still yet unknown as far as the djinn spirit is concerned. But Dr. Kay Jamison in her book Touched with Fire, actually gives the reader a chart of some of the families involved in her studies of the connection that creative genius has to bipolarity. These are all family histories of mostly famous artists who have already died. Thus, I conclude this paragraph with such thought in mind as to the preservation and well being of such family units thus previously mentioned as said breeding ground for djinn spirit beings, and your bipolarity.
I mention this in hopes of helping the djinn spirits, but Hitler had other ideas about your bipolar spirit and even went as far as marching such manically-depressed jinn beings and bipolar Gentiles, not just Jews, right into the ovens of hell, or in Auschwitz at the more famously known gas chambers. My Dad once told me, and this is a direct quote,“ Son, many of your past relatives were marched straight into the ovens of Hitler.“ Jesus, what the hell was Hitler thinking? He should have realized that those people were actually, though not all, djinn beings that he could have force used for their abilities. Instead of killing them all off like they were just human animals and nothing more. What a piece of Shit animal Hitler Shitler turned out to be. He didn’t even have enough sense to realize what a gift he had before him in the way of the gyd beings he was trying to destroy. If I had been there knowing what I know now, I would have personally called fire down from heaven right on Shitler’s empty head. It would have been a great pleasure watching him burn to death by the holy fire from God. Oh well! Maybe next time.J
Next time? God forbid.L This world and planet on which we all live, truly is a little hell right here on earth, and in more ways than one. But marching all of us bipolars into the ovens is not the answer either. Just the fact that the rest of humanity set back watching, and actually let Hitler
do the monstrous things that he did, should tell you that the potential for another Hitler still exists in some humans perverse mind and black soul. We are still waiting for such men as the Anti-Christ and his little romp around the romper room of life while slapping all the other little children just to make them cry, It will all only get worse before it gets better. That is why we need to open our eyes to our gyd beings so that our gyd genies can help us out of our unconscious mess that we have stubbornly and consciously gotten ourselves into.
Speaking of unbelief, I just spent the last week on the internet, and
found that although there are those who will believe in the spirit of
creative genius, as it is associated with bipolarity, there are also those
who will say that I am indeed insane to suggest that the Webster’s
dictionary definition of a GENIUS is true. “Two (as in bipolar) mutually
opposing spirits, one good and one evil, supposed to attend a person throughout their life.”. Jeez Luis, it can’t get any more plain then that. Or are ALL OF YOU now going to scream out loud? “WE NO LONGER BELIEVE IN OUR DICTIONARIES.” L
I didn’t think so, So end of discussion, and this book is proven and done.
Well, not really, but you no doubt can see my point of view.J So again, with this new info in your same old mind, reading the rest of this book, will make all the sense in the world. Now, are you not glad that you are reading this book with bipolarity? to learn the truth that will set you free.
Well, aren’t you the lucky one!!
Lucky indeed that you have been blessed by God, with this very misunderstood gift from Him God. Yes even while walking out the book store with this new book, or even as an e-book on the net, you are pursued by the naysayer’s and unbelievers. Just brush them off, and continue on your journey back to reality and academic professions?
That is to say, the academia of Webster’s dictionary, which seems to
be the only true academia that there really is. All other academia is a building called learning center, accredited, but not credited to have
enough sense to know the difference between, the academia of Webster’s dictionary, and the academia of their own self professed professors of each others professions. In short, a lot of hot air.
Let it be known that I angel de Fuego, believe in the dictionary and not
A bunch of self professed baboons striving to tenure themselves to
comfort and without lip or arguing from others who are not up to their
“Degree” of authority. And that is why it takes a creative genius 4th grade
drop out with bipolarity, to profess the un-profess able. That there is indeed a spirit of bipolarity, rather they in the academic world believe it or not, even while hidden deep inside their academic Bibles, also called the dictionary. Dr. Kay Jamison, a bipolar herself and academic champion, has already connected bipolarity to creative genius in her book Touched
With Fire, So doing the follow up research in my fourth grade educated
way, I went to the dictionary to see what it says about genius, and BINGO. 2 & 2 became= 22. While 2+2 became =4 Not just a matter of semantics or interpretation, but rather just plain old simple truth. Go figure. So shall academia re-write the dictionary to suit its own un believing needs? I guess if that’s what it takes to finally get rid of the spirit
of bipolarity as it is connected to creative genius then, “Make It So”
We Americans are supposed to be smarter than the rest of the world.
But it even took us (me) until 2008 to figure it all out, and make sense
out of an otherwise senseless mental illness of bipolarity, and with a fourth grade education, but also with a genie on board. GJ > That genie being the genius associated with bipolarity. Jeez Luis.J So you see that
with the help of Dr. Kay Jamison, who laid the foundations of the spirit of
Bipolarity, by connecting bipolarity to creative genius, then I further connected it to the spirit world, as per Webster’s dictionaries definition.
Even Einstein built his work on the foundations of those before him.
If you take away God from bipolarity, all you have left are the imbalanced chemicals. Put God back in the picture, and we have the spirit of bipolarity all over again. “I thought we got rid of that guy?” GJ >
Even Einstein believed in God and His perfect and orderly universe.
So it really is both made and destroyed by academia as is the illness itself. On a course set for suicide, as so many of its unsuspecting victims.
If they only would have listened? Listened to what? This idea of a spirit
of bipolarity that you can recognize and learn to control, is from God to me, and just as new as 2008. I don’t foresee any court battles to the claims of just exactly who created this idea of a bipolar spirit. The answer to that would have to be God Himself created it. End of discussion. As to when he did that, who knows, but it seems like to me that He did it thousands of years ago, and just now is getting around to telling us.
“O ya guys, I forgot to mention that bipolar spirit thing, and that it’s the spirit that causes the chemical imbalance in the first place.”
I don’t Know if God would actually say it in that way. But he is saying it to me nevertheless, and I in turn, am telling you all out there in life land.
You can believe me or not, because I am still writing and publishing this book, and for this reason was I born and put on this planet. Like some kind of modern day prophet, I bring to all with bipolarity the good news and Gospel of the spirit of bipolarity. You can reject it if you want to. But just remember what happens to those who reject the real gospel. UT OH!L Their train is bound for hell. So all aboard, the less of you in my bipolar heaven, the better.
Oh Yah, I forgot to say to you in the beginning of this book, Welcome to my world of bipolarity. (J /L ) So now you know, well congratulations and
bless your little hearts for reading this book!!!! Ya right, he is really saying, or at least my demon half is saying, You bunch of losers, you don’t disserve to know the truth that will set you free, you bunch of worthless humans. I wish you would all go and stub your toes or something creative like that,” GL> Jeez Luiz L
Anyway as I was saying before I was so rudely interrupted by my demon half…..what was I saying?…….O ya, this chapter is about doctors who don’t believe, or at least don’t want to believe out of childish fear. Yes you can be a doctor with child like fear about the unknown and God and His spirit realm. It happens everyday. Mostly again by academia, the creator and murderer of the spirit of bipolarity.

Red rum, in the Red field,
She had quite nicely concealed.
At night she would tip toe out,
And poor that Red Rum from its spout
On the ground, not to forget
About her bipolar spirit.
And when the Red Rum was all gone,
Her Red Field shined bright gold with the dawn.

I just wrote this poem for Dr. Kay Jamison, who has inspired me in more

ways than one, including the non drinking of alcohol of any kind any time.
Red-rum backwards is “Murder” thus the analogy of pouring the red rum
on the ground, to not forget (murder) about her spiritual self and bipolar

spirit. Her name is Redfield, thus the analogy of a red field. Once all the

red rum was gone, that which murders the spirit of bipolarity. Then she as

the Red Field becomes as gold, as she ascends upward to meet the reality of

her true gyd self. Don’t everyone clap at once. And no, I don’t have some

hidden shrine to Kay, way down deep and hidden in some dark and secret

room in the castle. The truth is, I wrote that poem to flatter myself, which

is the true nature of bipolarity, to show off its own creative genie, genius.

Sorry Kay, otherwise it would have gone to your head. I know us bipolars

all too well, It has been a life long learning program for me to just now start

to learn things only as I open my ears to the still small voice of God.

“Anyone can write a poem like that” you say! Yes perhaps, but when you

look at my whole volume of art (music poetry and paintings) you see it in a different light which exposes it for what it really is. A compressively elegant portfolio of works of art astounding and beautiful in both quantity and message. GJ> Under that (small) formuli,

I truly am the Renaissance man of this century. Am I boasting? I am trying not to, “but Lord it’s hard to be humble, when your perfect in everyway.” as the song says and also under such formulas of grandiosity which bipolarity also is. NOTE: this is not the end of

chapter one. ........more to come as I load it and organize it back into paragraphs. :-)

Bipolarity and Spirit Possession a Gift in Disguise

Monday, August 25, 2008

Chapter 2 Bipolar Spirit And Artistic Genius

Monday, August 4, 2008

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

Chapter One: Doctors Don't Know or Believe

About Me

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